I’m 40 today. Very Sad.

I woke up today 40 years old so I think I can speak with some authority on turning 40.

I guess if I was doing something with my life, I’d say it makes no difference, but all those people who say life begins at 40 are comforting themselves with benign platitudes I think.

I’m not happy about it. I’m a bit despondent really. I reckon if one is 40 and going nowhere it is a pathetic thing. Lets face it, how many 40 yr-olds do you know that aren’t doing anything with their lives? I don’t know many, and the ones that I do, I think are bums. So I’m pretty sure that makes me a bum….

Rick Warren says “The teacher is always silent when the test is given. When God is silent in your life, you are being tested” and that sums up what is going on in my life right now. But what to do when God is silent? My answer – nothing. But it’s not a lazy, good for nothing “nothing”. It’s more like a quietly hopeful nothing… that something will arise from nothing like it did in the beginning.